January 21, 2020:
I don't love the mornings, so I generally wait until the exact last minute to roll out of bed to drive Zachary to the bus stop. This morning, like most mornings, was cold and dark when I woke up. I threw on a hoodie & sweatpants, my jacket & my Birkenstocks and entered my already warm car...ahhh because thank The Lord Jesus for remote start, honestly...where has that been all my life??
The alone time with Zachary has been such a good way to start my days, I know my days with him are numbered and those days just seem to be flying at an exaggerated rate lately. He always has an idea to share: an invention, a book he's writing, a movie he's making...always something elaborate and very creative. This morning was no different...today, however, he asked if I always wave goodbye to him when I'm in the car. He explained that sometimes the interior light is on and he can see that I'm waving but sometimes it's off and he wanted to know if I were still waving on those days. I told him that I wave at him every single morning once he's sat down on the bus and he admitted that he waves at me every day too (the bus light is never on so I haven't ever seen it). When the bus pulled up and he was walking towards it he yelled back "even if you can't see it, I will always wave at you mom" and I said "me too, dude."
I'm certain that one day (probably pretty soon), he will be too annoyed to wave goodbye to me, so that's why I'm documenting what he said here, in black and white 😏😉.
My usual for Tuesdays is to go back home and make sure Deklan is ready for his day. I then climb back in bed and snuggle with sleeping Jude for a bit while it's still silent & I can read/pray/breathe.
We headed out to the bus stop for Deklan and once he was on the bus - still in my sweats and hoodie looking like I just rolled out of bed (because I actually did) - Jude & I grabbed breakfast at Chick-fil-a and headed over to my girl, Lita's house to do early morning manis! It's so nice having people in your life who you can be completely yourself around. I feel like for most of my life, I struggled being my true self amongst friends...in fact, I still fall back into my repressed/reserved ways whenever I'm just meeting someone or if I feel uncomfortable in any way. I don't know what that is or why I'm just now experiencing what it feels like to be my actual self - I probably need to investigate that.
After manis, we had a Walmart grocery pick up order 🙌...life saving, I swear. Jude helped me unload all the groceries into the house and then we fed Moo!
The rest of my afternoon/evening was spent getting prepared to launch Embrace Grace tonight! For those who haven't yet seen our posts, Embrace Grace is a national organization of small groups/ministries that provide emotional, practical, and spiritual support single pregnant women who find themselves in an unexpected pregnancy. It was a beautiful night of introductions and testimonies!
God is moving some big things, I can feel it! I can't wait to experience His activity in this arena! Lord, I am asking big prayers tonight. Big prayers for changed hearts on the abortion topic, asking for others to see it for what it is: an oppression of the smallest of us. A realization that circumstances do not determine our value. I pray that as a nation, we turn away from our selfish tendencies and see the value in choosing life...life, not just birth. I pray that the adoption industry shift to being inclusive for the average family to be able to afford adoption without going into debt. I pray that churches rise up to be a safe and nonjudgmental place for these young women to run to when they find out they're pregnant, instead of the last place they're welcomed because of shame and guilt. I pray that we all feel a responsibility to life and to choose to fully support it - especially when it's messy.
James 1:5
"But anyone who needs wisdom should ask God, whose very nature is to give to everyone without a
second thought, without keeping score. Wisdom will certainly be given to those who ask."
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