January 14, 2020 - Day 2
Today was rainy...again. I'm quite over the rain. I'm over the mud. I'm over having mud in the mudroom. I'm over muddy paw prints on the hardwoods and a dirty white dog who refuses to chill in her doghouse instead of rolling around in the mud. Heading down to feed the animals is a mudslide, I slipped and busted my rear last week so now I'm pretty much boycotting even being outside. It's January, all precipitation should be snow. I would trade it all though for permanent 70s like we had a few days ago.
I had a ton of chores to get done today that were put off last week. Laundry, floors, bathrooms, pantry - most of it got done but I struggled to stay motivated. Jude and I worked on some Kindergarten math and finished a superhero puzzle.
Last night, I started reading friendish by Kelly Needham. So far it's hit some pretty intense feelings with me and I've only gotten through 18 pages. "Adam was alone in the Garden, he was not lonely...After their forbidden-fruit tasting, Adam and Eve willingly withdrew from God by hiding from him, and they withdrew from one another by pointing fingers. Adam was no long alone, but he was lonely. Sin separates. Sin destroys fellowship. Sin creates loneliness."
I also realized today that since Embrace Grace is starting up next week, I have to have some connection with social media - I've received some messages and will need to respond if any more pop up. I'm trying to figure out how to balance using social media for work and not for any entertainment - it's a struggle! Emails just don't seem to be a typical form of communication anymore.
Today, I'm praying for direction. I have spoken to those close with me but while I love this new season of being mostly home with Jude, I still struggle with my identity & identifying my passion. Since I could talk, I always answered "teacher" when asked "what do you want to be when you grow up?" I don't think I'm completely removed from the classroom but I also don't have a desire to return to what I left. I feel like I'm coming out of this massive funk that the education system put me in. I desire it to be better but also realize that the politics of it all are hard to change.
I took the Holland Code Career Test online today and out of 6 interest areas, I scored a 100% in the helping category. "Helping jobs involve assisting, teaching, coaching, and serving other people. Helpers like working in cooperative environments to improve the lives of others." Shocker.
Matthew 17:20
“Because you have little faith,” he said. “I assure you that if you have faith the size of a
mustard seed, you could say to this mountain, ‘Go from here to there,’ and it will go. There
will be nothing that you can’t do.”
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