January 25-27th
I'm going to try to make this as quick and painless as possible for my 2 followers 😂. The 25th was m i s e r a b l e at first. Girl problems & I almost had to cancel on my girl Lita. I've shared this before but I have endometriosis and I'm certain that I'm reaching the level of severity it was when I had my lap procedure before getting pregnant with Jude. I know I need to go back and visit the doctor but 1. I would like a new OBGYN (any reccs?) 2. Doctors give me anxiety 3. Making phone calls to set up things gives me anxiety 😑.
Anyhow, about an hour before Lita was to pick me up it eased up enough to walk around & finally pack. We headed up to DC and checked in at The Mayflower Hotel which has such cool history, click here if history is your thing! They took signatures from all of the famous people who have stayed there & turned it into wallpaper - pretty cool! In the pics below you can see JFK & Walt Disney!
We were there to shoot a corporate event & I have to say - they're my most favorite photography gig! Everyone is so fun and there's always good music lol! The event didn't end until midnight and once we got to our room, cleaned up & decompressed, it was after 2am before I fell asleep.
So Sunday, I spent the whole day recovering...because I'm late 30s now and apparently, that'll do it!
Today was great! Jude & I had staff meeting and then we ran errands. During our errands though, we encountered a large family...approximately 6 kids the mom & the grandma. The adults seemed a little flustered and I obviously do not know how their day had been going but I heard the grandma look at her grandson (approximately 9 or 10) who was fiddling with some sort of drink and asked "WHAT the hell are you doing?" loudly & without shame. It got me wondering if she's willing to go there in public, what kind of things are said in private and then God reminded me of the exact reason I'm praying & fasting this time around. He reminded me that I have my own struggles with harshness and my own personal reasons behind why that had become my instinctive response. He showed me a grandma that was hurting. Hurt people hurt people, Jessie. I had a revelation that God isn't just working on my knee jerk reactions, He's taking me deeper to the root of the hurt and revealing more to me that everyone has a story. He knows that story and He knows that struggle and He loves us even with our faults.
Today, He turned my judgment into a prayer. (That's grace). A prayer for that grandma but also a prayer for myself. I pray that whatever hurts or hangups we're stuck on that each and every time we go to God with our struggles instead of relying on just ourselves. I pray that whatever those things are that fester inside of us be healed in His name. I pray a releasing from them so that we not pass on a generation of hurt.
Then tonight, as I was pulling up the verse...
Psalms 19:14
"may the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing to you, O LORD."
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